Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Tomorrow is Release Day

I don't think I've ever been so nervous!

As a result of what I do for a living, tomorrow is my big day and it's giving me a headache, butterflies and nervous tremors. I'm a raving wreck! My husband has given up trying to talk to me, I keep zoning out while he's talking, wondering if everything is really all right. Will my work be there tomorrow when I sign on?

What is it? It's release day. A book I've worked hard with and fought for over the past three years will be available to the general public tomorrow morning. For better or for worse, my baby is out there.

This story, BLIND JUSTICE, one that's had it's ups and downs, got sidetracked a couple of times, has been contracted twice and is only now making it to public sale, has been the book of my heart. At least I think it is. There are others that are important to me, books I'll treat as if they were my children, but BLIND JUSTICE is the book that waited while: I recovered from a heart attack; was rewritten to something it shouldn't have been in a misdirection caused by signing with an agent I liked but who wasn't right for the story, and that I agreed to a contract for only to find out it would be 3 years before it saw the light of day. When given the out because of the wait, I took it--then went back to Cerridwen Press who'd offered a contract the same day as the other company - just a couple of hours too late. They still wanted it, thank goodness!

And now, tomorrow, I'll have done everything there is to do. I can't revise another word. I can't change my plot because it might be off a tad in one chapter. I can't go back and make any character better than they are now.

It's too late.

Tomorrow is Release Day.

Cross your fingers and wish me luck!


Posted by Kelsy George :: Link :: 3:30 PM :: 5 Comments

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